ohwell syafiq (:

Roy (:

Picture of last two week to nw
i need to study hard le
fail alot
sigh need work hard le...

to a point
where fated take its chance
couldnt do much
could only wait things to get better..
nw its doesnt just concern abt me
its need two people..
yeah
Obviously..
Parent
Bff
friends
normal friends
im last ):

Teddy found each other, living happily after...
where my other half?.. ):

Woke up
feeling emotional..
need some1 to hug me..
just want to freaking slp and nvr wake up..
): sucks
hpe today at sch would be gd...

First of Thanks to the four people who msg me Happy bdae

thanks for the first present i get ! which i love it the most (:

thanks for the notes By Peiwoon , emelda and celeste

thanks 4a3 for wish me happy bdae (: ty guys and girls

ohya ty ameala for saying happy birdday for 3 time -,-

Thanks bryan for the gift i love it

thanks :

Billy!! for making the flour thing

TY all!!! TY

i nvr thought i wud ever have this kind of bdae

kena throw into parade square and kena flour by ur guys.. (:
TY guys

ohya.. today was kinda incomplete

without u

i miss you like crazy

yup..

u owe me 1 day liao uh :p

LOve u tonsSSS!!!

horay? happy bday sean -,-
hw can i describe my bdae tdy
think wud be the sadest 1?
morning wake up by my dad
hoping his gonna say happy bdae bt nope...
he wake me up den just go ler...
mum was slping
wow kinda amaze me nvm
could have been a better 1 bt nope nt this year ba...
sigh
guess she cant pei me today ler ba...
where the things we said b4 ):...
where the promises..
):

anw hope i could seriously faster end today
cos i nvr want to spend it anymore ):

well
things could change that fast..
what esle?
cant do anything?
sigh...
issit that easy to say that?
issit?
ar u willing mess up everything we had for just this 1?


Today science n history
prepare to fail
no mood ler
cui liao prepare to get 1 digit
i dw take the paper..
sian..


trm..
what would it be?
will u be dere like u promise u wud be?
turning point ba..
its either happy or sad..
prepare le..
prepare to be alone
trm wud be the quietest day of my day

Happy bdae Girl (:
haha



change blogskin ler (:
ty to Peiwoon (:
hehe
ytd had my dinner with family $338!
wow hahas
first time i talk on phone so long
4 hrs (: love it simply
ily (:

Today

Love it

Miss it

Sleep through it (:

hahas

on a happy mood

okay gd

later goin to grandma hse to early celebrate my bdae (:

hehe GREAT

u know what ?

imYYY HX :x

haha

4moredays..

wow this week is a very cui 1
tell u
if u were me u will know!
each day u stare at the teacher
no mood to study
just want freaking say all those word
craps
i dun feel like takin test anyway
no mood liao


Not me say nia okay?
kenneth say so
syafiq say so
roy say so
unless i cock-eye
oresle im right


pissed? yup
thanks la guys
after talking to u all kinda feel better
TY atx!


i trust u
rumor will be rumor for nw
hw much longer can i take it?


countdwn myself
5days more ..

pretty bored this few days
not gonna elaborate much (:
todays first period was math
i was so slpy i can barely open my eye
well den i requested to go toliet wash my face
well today im been keen on my Fnn project (:
teacher say i did much better den last year
(: was happy
maths : hope i can ace it :D
english : just a pass will do
science : just pray i nvr get single digits (:
history : hope i ace it too
socialstudies : erm dun really interest me alot bt yup i like the vid Ms.Joseph showed (:


oh ya.. talk abt teacher
Ms.Joseph from what i think is quite nice cos shes teaches in a way that amuse me (:
Miss Toh -,- sry im really bored at ur lesson , pardon me for slping in ur class
Mr Yong probaly the most interesting teacher for this year for me (:
love his lesson
Miss Lee bored as usual bt i will work hard (:
Mr Sim Same like last time always copy note.. i gtto work hard le ): all my lesson wif him i was wasting time ):
well done will up date more next time (:

After 4 years..
guess u guys are right ..
i haven change a bit

have dinner at plaza
wanted to ton bt mum dun allow
nvm
happy in the end (:

The dreaded day is coming
The trademark holiday
That reminds me I’m alone again...

I’d stay in bed
And sleep through the day
If I thought it would go away

Reminders are everywhere
Silhouetted with hearts
Love just sickens the air

Longing fills my heart
Wishing I had someone that day
To hold my hand

yup
The dreaded day is coming
The trademark holiday
Another, where I’m all alone

okay la guys
seriously breaking dwn liao
speechless...
trm confirm im not going out T_T
cry
im worth nth okay !!!

just mayb could it be ..
thing just cant get any worser...
haha mayb gonna get a fight soon (:
nice la sean :D
14th mayb gonna spend alone... :D
hehe
im just proud at the gift i made (: lol
i will spend my day wif my teddy bear ba..
yeah
come come come
im ready for u :D

well com spoil cant really blog at the moment
): sad...
today is 13th ..
trm is 14th valentine days..
sigh
see hw its goes
if she couldnt make it
i dun feel like going out...
well

ytd was H6M hehe :D

yeah (:

hehe..

ty for telling me

i choose to believe u

i choose u

gt my watch ler :D hehe

today gonna stay at hme

lol study ? idk see first

I want to be with you,

but your millions of miles away.
i wish you would call just to ask about my day...

it would make things so much better if i could hear you voice.

I guess i can't complain too much, after all this was my choice. :D

i wish i could hold you in my arms and look in to your eyes..
i promise i will always be true to you and never tell you lies...
its so hard to go to sleep without you by my side.
my tears are the only thing ill ever try to hide.

i lie awake in bed as the tears stream down my face,

they keep going until the hit my pillow case.

i miss you

Went out Today NICE :D
hehe
most happy day of feb :D
HEHE
i gone out with my idol today seh :D
hehe
after that i went meet yipeng roy andy jeremy and shawn to play lan
LOL
fun
outing with all my sons :D lol not all son :D
pic will be upload trm :D

HEhe

ty for coming out with me
ainiaini :D
1mre day yeah :D

gonna get this watch during 14th feb i guess..


I think back in time,
Where we had fun.
I thought it was a time,
But i still don't know.
I think of you,
All day long.
I love you, do you love me too?
I don't think so, but i do hope!
I hoped you would never go,
But you did.
Loved it, your smile, your looks, your hair.
I would even walk a mile
Just to find you standing there.
I'm thinking of you,
I really love you!

2more day to what could have been should have been our 6th m

went to sch
have a slacking day
im alway over reacting to small matter
and its true
i want to break the mirror
i want to want to vandalise
i want to dig a hole and bury myself
lol
lame right?
like SYAFIQ say
i have a screwed life
nth going my way
i have to change it :S
i hate this
i hate my life
bt im gonna live it anyway zz

this teddybear what i sleep with all night

love the teddybear

hes th only 1 i could talk to everyday.. everynight

hes was there for me when im down

while its been 1 day since i decide to change

its so hard..

dun feel happy that much even though i try

the sadness just sat in somehw?

foramoment i was back to my oldself

so ...

bt intheend i pull myself up

and back doin other things to keep my mind occupied...

hard as its same..

i feel like giving up

ARh .. ):

okay
trm onward the brand new me
no more me thinking of dieing
no more me thinking stuff negatively
i will change
to a better the person
the person that is worth being loved..
yup its sure is hard
breaking dwn as i think everysecond
bt i hang on
becos i want to do it for myself for once
i want myself to be happy
first i must love myself
b4 even i can even love some1
okay thats it i promise to myself no more acting patheticly
okays sean !! jyjy
doesnt mean u have to change in just 1 day
mayb it could take a few months
who knows..
1 things for sure
first time i felt alive
alive to my very existence
live for myself
b4 even living for other ppl
yes wait for me
i will change
just hope its just not that too late...

the worst thing tonight is that im still alive
could i just dissapear to end it?
can i not be that pathetic?
yesh saw some 1 blog and reflect
yesh just words can made me moodless
yesh im emotional
yesh im pathetic

would u?
stay?
for ? me?
nope nope nope ):
can i get some accident happening?
den i gt paralyzed?
can i?
can i get cancer?
can i?
can i just have something bad happen to me so i can suffered alone?
can i?
can i dun be a burden
can i simply just just just u know? die?
zz

those reader
i dun write this to made u pity me
i just feel like writing hw i feel
so yeah think im pathetic
YESh i am

im so D: nw
seeem no1 need me at all
can i just dig a hole and bury myself
pleaSE?!?!?!?!? D:
mayb i just purposely walk in traffic and let the car bang me ?