am i desperate?
mayb i am

i couldnt say its nice
bt i wud rather feel this way
i wud rather u happy
it is fated?
idk
well all dwns wif fate
soyah fate?
whats issit gonna be den?

Your subtleties
They strangle me
I can’t explain myself at all.
And all the wants
And all the needs
All I don’t want to need at all.
I look at you with such disdain

if only time could turn back

my mum go taipei buy so many boxer for me lol!

lol k tire

HAPPY bdae to xinyu and jiayu

done :D

imyily :D

k just gt back breakfast this pic is my brother whining abt his food and the place which is terribly warm

back from cross-country
hw shud i describe that day?..
its was such a nice sunny day..
i was expecting something..
well
went to assemble
through the crowd
i smile
i smile
looked at something which is unpleasant for me
i know things change bt i just cant... ):
i was gasping for air b4 the race even started..
i was suffocating
den i close my eye trying to regain
yeah 5min
i did it..
well see so many people wanted to run for the medals so my feeling was like i gtto get 1
so yeah
b4 the start of the race its was suppose to be like a 3 man race for me shiying and xiao roy
we wanted to step the line together bt yeah i change my mind
so yeah i ran for the sake not dissapointing people
i struggled
struggled
all i could think was..
hope when i reach the finishing line
its was like what i hoped
u know ... ):
nearly the finishing line
i was running against kelvin
i thought i was gonna lose to him..
i lost all my strength
bt when he said hey u first ba
den i was like.. okay..
so yeah i run my heart outs
u know..
pain ? yeah
showed ? nope
after race i went to take the medal and drinks.. i return the bun
u know through that crowd i wanted to get in
fit in ...
whats its like to be ... to feel like a extra..? its sucks ..
yeah
well atleast i gt water to drink..(:
i wanted i wanted bt still in the end i did nth
its was like a barrier to me
just couldnt go throught its..
yup so what if i gt 23rd
so what if i ran
whats the point?
well im happy for every1 who did well or finish the races..
im truely happy for them..
bt for me ..
my wants was pretty lame bt yeah its like this :
when i reach the finishing line
i was hoping
to hear : SEAN SEAN SEAN JYJYJY
okay lame right?
well i didnt get it? or i nvr heard it?
lol.. well yeah indeed last time ler..
i prove to myself i still can run
hoping stuff
i want to be dere
i want to be dere
i want to be dere
when u ask me to
even if i being used im glad to...



its was just a hi bye thing
its wasnt close

yeah

what a day

Super cutting session?

luckily mr sng help me cut

so i escape from the barber Whos a botak chinese guys?



i look at the present and past..

im a vacancy









things that i dont want to see keep appearing...

things that i only can talk with is wif my teddy../

okay uh my blog gt
problem uh
dk hw to fix it
Peiwoon help me do soon uh !
tY (:
hahas today was
a slpy day indeed
i slp 4 period?
lol okay
went on balling after sch
okay was nice (:
bt yeah
i tend to be pissed off
by myself
bt i tried uh try try calm dwn
yeah :D
okay great
well after that went home


im worried yeah
u mean to me alot..
its the truth
yeah
even nw
its still that strong
yeah pls be happy..
anything call me.. im alway here for u..
i want to changed.. to be a better person who can takecare of u
yeah wait me yeah hahas.. :D
IMyy that girl :D

Well
back to normal posting
sch life (:
first two period
CME
lol i drop dead slping when i heard that today see show
hahas
after that english period
i thought i might want to slp
bt after seeing what teacher say
its gonna be abt writing something ba
what job am i goin on when im not studying le
K
i want TO BE a ENGINEER (:
hahas

Heard that friday is X - Country
that i always like going de
i ask all come uh pls
its been 4 year since i was in a x - country
Wow things change nw all get badge uh lol
i didnt go two year ago 1
lol
gt 14th when sec 1
lol nw old liao
hope to get a 25th
gonna start training TO get it (:
4 more days to go !!
lol (:




there it is again (: that feeling :D
hahas nvm things changed

Finally i understand
what the meaning of it
sry for what i did the past and nw
i will work on my life !
make it fullest
make everyday a happy 1
made sure
made sure
made sure
things wud get better

yeah lol (:
today went cut hair wif yipeng
dinner wif roy and tengxiang


the memories will be lock inside my heart forever