Bother or not to bother?
my heart told me to bother.
The pain doesn't hurt that much when i see you less often.
great. But not today.

Lucky for me i am getting my study mode back on.
i am just so tired at times, i don't know why. -,-
Well good luck, going out soon. Yup.
bye.




















Not worth anymore.

A hair cut for school reopen
Time to meet all my peers again. A time when we can see people being serious on their study in our class. I still remember 2008 which is my first Sec 4 badge. God that class really can't make it, seriously. Only a few studied, I am sleeping like pig everyday. Teachers given up on us literally. And our reward? Retained, Dropout and ITE. Here i am this year at Sec 5. Walking back the right path. Poly? Yeah i want but saying is nothing as action must be taken to achieved it. Saw some of my friend today, all either ITE or Dropout. I don't know should i be happy or worried if i can make it this year. Yes, i need to work on physics and Bio. Say that quite a few times but not taking any action :/ its now or never...

Understand this
I'm not Talented enough
So i have to work twice as hard.
So i can't even handle Man-marked
How am i suppose to even tryout for a team.
Damn.
maybe i should just give up.
i know its being coward to give up.
i am afraid.
i am afraid.

Watched Karate kid,
Definitely not a waste.
Really teaches us alot.
i hate bullies



Mr. Han: You've already accomplished everything you wanted to. Why do you still want to fight?
Dre Parker: Because win or lose, I don't want to be afraid any more. And I'm still afraid.

Watched Toy Story Yesterday with my small cousins,
Well it was an Okay show, Ya.

Hang out with my Buddys after that.
Seriously i feel So much better when i am with them.
I don't have to force myself to be someone I'm not.
Maybe i don't even know myself anymore.
Who am i?

Mad BBQ yesterday
We all Starving like never eat for many days as we queue for the FoodS!
haha! Yup nice.

I struggle to even Do some history essay question
i have so much distraction
Drinks, Computer, Bed, Food.
and many more u can imagine
lol.
Thankfully i manage to do 1 ESSAY kk!
TRM ANOTHER ESSAY!

Today was Too much Boredom for me
But it pass fast.
used the computer all day long, Feel like rotting.
Trm have bbq
Happy birthday Mom. Sorry i dun have money to buy u a cake.

"Its not easy to break up of your comfort zone
People will tear you down.
Tell you, you Shouldn't have bothered in the first place
But let me tell you something.
That is not much different between a Stadium full of Cheering fans and Angry crowd screaming abuse at you
They're both just making a lot of noise
How you take it is up to you
Convince yourself they are cheering for you
You do that, and someday they will" from Sues

b
Thats what it looks like before 6 hours later LOL
Its could have been much nicer with more extra cash

First day:
We barbecue , and have Wrestling all day long
Chaos as its all boys action. Lol. Till Weicheng 619 the bed and then it cracks we Stop after that
its was fun though
We play pokers after that
Omg, No events then We all went sleep
its overpopulated some don't managed to sleep
as i am smart, i managed to find a spot to sleep :D

2nd day:
Those never sleep were like zombie
They went sleep when some people wake up,
Well i feel like sleeping so i continued
Actually wanted to go Escape Theme Park at around 10 am but its was raining at that moment.
2pm plus when rain finally clear up we went Escape.
Its was Crazy i guess?
Screaming like nobody business hahaha!
Especially when i totally own the guys in the water float
Went back, play Basketball, The rim quite low to the extent i can hold on to it
back to go kopitiam eat! Some went burger king
Grab our Tibits at the NTUC and head back to the room
again, i find a good spot to sleep , i left 80cent btw.
We play Black jack, Lose my 80 cent :( then go sleep liao as they continued on to play. Slept


3rd day.
Nothing much
Pack out every thing and Move out the chaletttttt

Penniless now.


Let go Sean. just let go.

Going on a chalet
14th- 15th
Be right back! :D

Thanks for appearing in my Dream
Even if it was for only 2 hour. I am contended.
Yes, i am breaking through.

What !?
Sean: Hey wanna go shalet during the June holidays ?
Syafreak: Hmm, who 's turnin up ?
Sean: The usual Chinese lorr, shawn Roy etc
Syafreak: Wait, so I'm the only Malay you've asked ?
Sean: Yea, you should be proud. lol
Syafreak: why the fuck am I the only Malay invited to this " chinese gathering " ?
Sean: Cause you're the Cool Malay dude
Syafreak: Right... Ok umm, see first -,-

Basketball session in the morning
God, i am not playing well
Ball hogging, Shooting off-form, No post move No Defence!
omg.
after that i wanted to go home sleep
came a call from tzin how to go imm get his phone
okay la not bad treat me Soyabean!
haha yup thats it,
14th!!

Went to Pasir Ris with Tzin How
Tiring day as we spent almost the whole day at there.
Yes.

Happy Advanced Bdae Tzin How ! :D

65.4 kg!
Yes, i am on my way to not growing fat! :D
Wee,
had a run today,
felt exhausted, 19min 3.6km really slow!
my stamina is dropping. OH my god,
NO ! stamina i need you i need you!

i can see me having the same life.
Lol.

Oh. i don't feel well
Stupid Fever.
i can't find the Panadol! Awww. :(
and i have no appetites to eat

Let’s face it, we’ve changed. We’ve all changed. Somewhere between school ending and school starting. We’ve all gone in our own directions. Hearts were broken and friendships were fucked over. New loves started, and new people came into our lives. We no longer hang-out with our circle of friends that we thought that was going to be there for us “forever”. We no longer talk for hours about nothing at all. We’ve all changed. Some for the better and some for the worse.















Yo Coach, i am better than just a reserve!

i want to ask .
But i am scared of the truth
so i choose to walk away knowing i will regret without knowing the truth.

I don't want to care anymore.

i am gonna live my life my way.
No more no more.
Bye.

seeing people change isn't what hurts.
What hurts is remembering who they used to be.

My head says, " who cares? " But then my heart whispers, " You do, Stupid..."







My mouth hurts so bad, someone get me painkiller! :(

Watch This film
Thumbs ups to Clint Eastwood
nice movie!

1 of the quote in the movie:

Walt Kowalski: [Walt is trying to "man" up Thao] Now go out and talk to him, and it ain't rocket science for Christ's sake.
Thao Vang Lor: Yeah, but I don't have a job, a car, or a girlfriend.
Barber Martin: Jesus. I shoulda blown his head off when I had the chance.
Walt Kowalski: Yeah. Maybe so.

Cool film,
Spend my entire day at AWWA,
waiting for my bro as he is having a Memory improving Workshop
Well i was at there idling all day long, listening to my ipod
Great.











thanks for being there when i needed you today.

Happy Birthday JIELONG!

I started finding recipe for Fnn
Hopefully i will get 7-8 dish asap!
Currently have 1

will post trm!