Woke up to realise its was 8.33am
watch nba match..
boston vs piston
great win again for boston..
realise the fact
things have change..
its too fast for me..
i know i haven change
i stood still in the same old place..
just wish
to go abroad and live in a place
australia? usa?
go there change my face ? look more european?
well its alway 1 of dream to live the america life
To realise that every1 has change except for me sucks
its like im moving a slow pace while every1 is overtaking me
its just sucks..
to realise its gone
when i didnt have time to recover
to a point when u know u wont be getting it back even though hw hard u try..
even then? go back to this phrase : whats the point?
its not like if u try hard u are gonna get it back or what?
yup.. thats so sucks
hope? soon to forget whats hope feels like..
dissapointment? yeah beens my best buddy ever since..

first of all hope shes okay D:

really going crazy

D:

today went fareast wif roy aftersch to buy my cap > above

Barack obama

Please dun let anything happeng to her D:

rather let the anything happen to me D:

oh wow..
today went 2 relative hse bai nian
Lol
i dun even know hw to address dem
i just smile at them and they give ang bao to me lol
after that all went grandma hse (mother side de )
we play Blackjack !!
hehe i WON $34
first time seh
so happy..
everytime lose money 1 this time finally win
: D
thats all
trm sch ler eh
i just want to see her !! hehe :D
miss her leh

First of all i not really racist

today went Father side grandma hse bai nian . lol reach dere set up my ps2 and play wif my cousin. then after that we went parklane to play lane..lol i laughed the whole day becos my cousin told me abt the bangla.

i wanna to seriously say.. y is bangla GAY...

everywhere i go i see bangla holding hand.. n i mean boy and boy .. zz made me laugh every each of them i saw ... gt 1 bangla hair grow leaf 1 lol!!!

haha wen bk to grandma hse at 9 20 eat dinner den went hme

nw dead drop tired..

gdnite peopleS! :D

And i Miss u Ms.k!

Bored
seem ages that i took my photo again :S
well
a okay day

woke up
early this morning
eat bf den mop floor
THink of this:
i find myself compare to a guy in a show
i was never the popular guy , average rated guy
people somewhat doubt my ability
they were biased against me
bt there is this 1 person was alway rooting for me
and believe i can succeed
mostly i will get moody after thinking of that
bt not today (:
i will work hard and prove to every single 1 of u
who think im pathetic (:
JYJY Sean!!

schooled
~~
slp for first period den the principle came
~~ woke up
zz
den math lesson
do math 1e
i can die liao la
after doing it
i feel the after effect of the 1e
ITS CURSED
my neck hurt like hell ~~~ D:
Crap crap crap

Guilty
not
pleasure
):

Standing up is so difficult
Sitting dwn was that painful
walking was that tiring
running is like killing me D:
this is hw i feel
in 836pm 21/1/09

breakingdwn of myself

purely just want to take every bit of my energy out of me
rather den to waste it by rotting
its sucks to be alone
yeah i know
been through it

today schooled
gt math test 2
dk i did well anot D:
crap
seem difficult
no time to finish it D:
crap..
just hope i did well D:
aftersch all was mostly gone
well bryan came along
well ty
was kinda bored bt with bryan things seem more nicer
ty Lao turban
lol


hope she feel better nw
hoping that nth could happen to her
i would rather have the pain to myself den to her..
yup that true hw i feel
yeah love her

Pass my math test..

didnt feel much happy i guess

becos alot mistake :S never get full mark ):

ohwell

This few days is gonna be tough

cos i be all alone aftersch i guess..

just suckss

hope some1 will pei wo study..





IM is dissapointed in both of u

Just saded that i have to know it from other friend

sigh

Trust you is just one defenseoff a list of others, you don't make senseBeg me time and time againto take you back now, but you can't winTake back now, my life you're stealing..

stay home today nth much
was think abt that some1
couldnt msg
bt nvm as long we miss each other can le :D

woke up
830am
watch nba
went eat mac as bf den homed
i decided to stay at home
as she is not available
gonna eat dinner later with roy and mayb bryan
y cant i smile?
even if its a fake smile D:
zz
y cant i happy for people ?D:

first of all i dun consider myself a sad guy
im consider myself pathetic
things just aint going well
my past
primary 1-3 was the worst year i had for primary sch
primary 4
i was a quiet student
average kid
nth going right
den came
Mr Ler
my form teacher..
he encourage me alot!!
he made me a chairman
he made me feel im impt
he made me feel i like i special in a way
he made me feel that i am gd in anything
study was gd
my cca was goin gd
after primary 4 , came primary 5
new form teacher
Mr gan
he is also very gd to me
made me feel that i can achieve thing beyond my reach
recommend me to join rugby
which at first i thought was not for me
i went for the try out
and felt comfortable
so i became a rugby player
i came for every training they have and even train by myself
at that moment Rugby was the only thing i enjoy
U know that feeling?????
when ur team mate believe in u?
when they would rather believe u can succeed even if its impossible
u KNOW? that feeling u will feel that u are impt?
Sec 1
i came in being average..
many tall ppl
try out for soccer first year
didnt work out
well i eventually join ncc
Sec 2 i went for the soccer tryout and gt in
i was that happy..
Mr tan
my soccer teacher incharge..
he made me feel that i was impt yet again after so long..
sec 3 he tranferred to singapore sports sch
after he left
i dun have the confindence to play soccer anymore
everything falls apart..
yup
from den on
i never once felt important at all



u know that feeling?
when ur teamate wud rather let other take a shot rather den letting u take?
do u know ?
do u know?
do u even know? i wasnt even that impt to look at..? for that 1-5min
even if i try my VERY very best?
i nvr get a praise
its sucks
terriblely
i couldnt say much
i was speechless?
what the point of training myself to run
2.4km ? its not like any1 is gonna notice ?
im just THAT AVERAGE GUY!!
Sigh...

today just completely moodless..
woke up..
wanting to slp again
bt nope i drag myself to bath den off sch..
run 2.4km
i did well for my own record..
bt i simply wasnt feeling happy at all
whats the point?
its not like hes gonna believe it ant..
i was hoping he wud say great job..
was that too hard?
sch nwadays sucks
no matter hw hard i try
i just dun measure up
wow
wanted to study today
bt becos of my mood
i cant rmb a single thing i revise on
seriously im sick of life










each day part of me is dieing D:

first of all
i flunk my fnn ):
i told teacher i really suck at it
miss Lee encourage me by telling me i can learn by learning
each chapter each day (:
ty miss Lee (:
and ya
my maths are on right track le
hope can top in class (:

today first time see a full softball match lol?
after sch me and roy went my hse to take pe attire den off to buy lunch eat den we went to study and done my hmework den we went watch th softball match (:
lol we claimed ourself as stalker lol(:
haha well
She was a star out dere today (:
yeah my allstar (:
hehe jyjy ! improve more (:
my number 1 softballer (:

first of all
finally im in study mode (:
and ya
below is hw i feel
: 60 things most girls dont know
Guys hate sluts even though they have sex with them!(oh yeah..you're not "popular" if you've slept with more than 6 guys..you're a HOE)--
"Hey, are you busy?" or "Are you doing something?" ~ two phrases guys open with to stop from stammering on the phone.
--Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.
--Before they call, guys try to plan out a little about what they're gonna say so there aren't awkward pauses, but once he's on the phone he forgets it all and makes it up as he goes.
--Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.--Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him.
--Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest. Unless they're goin for the let-her-complain-to-you-and-then-have-her-realize-how-wonderful-and-nice-you-are method.
--A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to.--Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're still loved.--Don't talk about your guy friends to your boyfriend.
--Guys get jealous easily.
--Guys are more emotional than they'd like people to think.--Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what?!..uh...nevermind.." would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.
--Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.
--Guys hate asking parents for money to buy girls presents. So they come up with ideas like saving their lunch money for a week. But it never works because guys are always hungry so they end up asking the parents for money anyway.
--Girls are guys' weaknesses.
--Guys are very open about themselves.
--It's good to test a guy first before you trust him. But don't let him wait too long.--Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend.--If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.
--A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.--Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships.
--Guys will brag about anything.
--Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. We rarely use beautiful.If a guy uses that, he likes you a whole hell of a lot.--No matter how much guys talk about asses and boobs, personality is key.--Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience.
--Guys worry about the thin line between being compassionate and being whipped.
--Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn't notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant.
--Guys seek for advice from girls not other guys. Because most guys think alike, so if one guy's confused, then we're all confused.--Any guy could write out a rulebook or advice book for flirting, but no guy can write out a book about relationships.
--Try to be as straightforward as possible.--If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl.
--If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and is spazzing inside.--When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is. Guys rarely say that.
--When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, "Please come and listen to me."
--Guys don't really have final decisions.--If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.
--If your best guy friend seems to avoid you or is never around when you're with your boyfriend, he's probably jealous and likes you.
--When a guy tells you that you are beautiful, don't say you aren't. It makes them want to stop telling you because they don't want you to disagree with them.
--When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something.
--Guys like femininity not feebleness.
--Guys don't like girls who punch harder than they do.
--A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.--Don't be a snob. Guys can be intimidated and give up easily.
--Everything in moderation. Put on makeup, wear perfume. Just not too much.
--Guys talk about girls more than girls talk about guys.--Guys hate rejection, but they hate being led on even more.
--If you are going to reject a guy, just do it. Don't say they are like a brother or just good friends, it just hurts even more. Tell them that you aren't interested in a relationship and they will respect you.
--Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them.--A guy would give his left nut to be able to read a girl's mind for a day.
--No guy can handle all his problems on his own. He's just too stubborn to admit it.
--Not all guys are assholes. Just because ONE is a jackass doesnt mean he represents ALL of us.
--We don't like girls who are too skinny.
--We love it when girls talk about there boobs.--Always make sure you know what kind of stuff your getting into before making out with a guy ...like wheather it's a one time deal or not ....--Believe it or not shy guys are the most easiest to talk to..it may not seem right but trust me they will start opening up like books after you just ask them questions about their lives and unoticable tell them about yours...
--When a guy hits your butt it means that he wants you sexually--Even if they refuse it all guys are ticklish on the ribs..
--Guys love neck rubs and if he lets you keep doing it ..it means that he really likes you or his neck really hurts...
--Guys will test the waters to see how far they can get with you. Even if he doesn't intend to it will happen. Know how far it is you want to let him go and he will respect that...after you let him know a couple times.
--When a guy sacrifices his sleep and health just to be with you, he really likes you and wants to be with you as much as possible.

woke up today early
to play basketball at teck whye cc again..
zz
i sprain my leg again..
zz 3rd time liao lor
sooner or later no nid walk liao lor
zz
today..
stay at home
i will do anything just to get u get


Never get to say too much
mistake i made
its just worsen everything
Life?
what the points

woke up
to realise
im was
well
nvm
what shud i do today?
idk
slp? mayb?
rot
certainly

whats the point

H5m~~~

oh what the points?
its only me
nice..
just nice
what a day i had
simply nice..
whats the point?
i feel like quiting on my team ler..
whats the point?
i feel like not playing basketball anymore ler..
what the point?
i feel like ...
what the point?
is not like shes gonna be by my side..

great..
another moodswing
another misery
another sorrow
crap?
yeah?
why am i not enjoying my day!
why?
i ask myself..
zz
all i want is just that small small thing to happen
just a 5 min will do..
was all this time I was wasting?
hoping you would come around..
I've been givin' out chances every time..

u know what?
i regreted..
i should have done it bt i just wasnt gd enough for it..
i regreted...
sch been nice yeah bt i still the plain old me =X
meet new friends
haven made any enemy
soon ba (:

i rmb once..


i held ur hand as we were in the bus
even though it was secretly..
i felt happiness =0
will this ever happen again?
will i ever hold u again?

first of all i gtto say..
isnt blog for people to say what they want to say?
second of all
judge me?
idc
want say something?
say it into my face
bu shuang just tell me ?
bt im not admit any wrg i did
i did what i like okay?
SO freaking scram off?
stay at home today
watch : licence to wed
quite nice
watching the superstar abit
wtf was the two kid singing?
lol thats was funny
ohwell trm sch den
hope its gd
and not getting into a conflict?
u know what?
i pisssed right nw?
just sick and tire

well what a bad start..
worst first day of sch ever :S
step in to sch
immediately spotted loong hair by mr yong zz
sian
he said: SEAN u request to repeat in sch den still disobey the sch rules..
u dw to study anymore issits
zz
after that went to dc until 10pm den called parent and off we kena send off (: zz
cut hair den we eat lunch btw im with wei cheng and andy (:
yeah lols den went back to sch at 11 plus saw all my friend den i felt much better.. lols .. saw her she run away after seeing me like im a ghost -,-
mayb i m -,-
follo xinyu back to class..
gt the idunbelonghere feeling ): zz
play basketball after sch den homed..
yup what a day at sch -,-

Ms k (:
hehe
what shud i describe her? lol
shes kind
shes cute with or without her glasses
shes is shy too sometimes
lol i oso dk y :S
the way we get to know each other is so funny hahas
well im just glad i knew her..
090808 yeah this the date (:
the day that i will nvr forget for life (:
shes became the person i miss everyday no matter what am i doin.. lol
when im brushing teeth , going out wif friend , playing basketball , using com and yeah more n more hahas..
yeah she my everything (:
my reason to live on this life is abt her
care for some opinion? idunfreaking care.. (:
yeah and i do love her <3