day 1

she reached her decision last night.
well respected her choice bah.

i wonder why i try so hard, i wonder why does it hurt so much.
thinking abt the time we spent.
the joy we had, the sorrow we share, the tear we shed.
soon it would be a past.
Maybe I'm retarded, but i just cant seem to think of her all day long.
Fuck up mind set of mine
move ON SEAN! MOVE ON!!!!
GET A NEW LIFEEEE


it is easier to say then done.
crappy feeling now,
how? no 1 to share with
lol!
Finding each of them further away from me
i cant reach out to anyone anymore
Oh what am i going to do anymore?, why am i saving so much money for?
crap, i know its my own wishful thinking that i always hope that if i try harder, eventually we could get back.
in the end,

1 funny thing too, my dream. Guess its just a lie
u actually give me hope, lol nows it gone







i hope u made the right choice, i did not leave u, in the end u left.