gt my watch ler :D hehe

today gonna stay at hme

lol study ? idk see first

I want to be with you,

but your millions of miles away.
i wish you would call just to ask about my day...

it would make things so much better if i could hear you voice.

I guess i can't complain too much, after all this was my choice. :D

i wish i could hold you in my arms and look in to your eyes..
i promise i will always be true to you and never tell you lies...
its so hard to go to sleep without you by my side.
my tears are the only thing ill ever try to hide.

i lie awake in bed as the tears stream down my face,

they keep going until the hit my pillow case.

i miss you

Went out Today NICE :D
hehe
most happy day of feb :D
HEHE
i gone out with my idol today seh :D
hehe
after that i went meet yipeng roy andy jeremy and shawn to play lan
LOL
fun
outing with all my sons :D lol not all son :D
pic will be upload trm :D

HEhe

ty for coming out with me
ainiaini :D
1mre day yeah :D

gonna get this watch during 14th feb i guess..


I think back in time,
Where we had fun.
I thought it was a time,
But i still don't know.
I think of you,
All day long.
I love you, do you love me too?
I don't think so, but i do hope!
I hoped you would never go,
But you did.
Loved it, your smile, your looks, your hair.
I would even walk a mile
Just to find you standing there.
I'm thinking of you,
I really love you!

2more day to what could have been should have been our 6th m

went to sch
have a slacking day
im alway over reacting to small matter
and its true
i want to break the mirror
i want to want to vandalise
i want to dig a hole and bury myself
lol
lame right?
like SYAFIQ say
i have a screwed life
nth going my way
i have to change it :S
i hate this
i hate my life
bt im gonna live it anyway zz

this teddybear what i sleep with all night

love the teddybear

hes th only 1 i could talk to everyday.. everynight

hes was there for me when im down

while its been 1 day since i decide to change

its so hard..

dun feel happy that much even though i try

the sadness just sat in somehw?

foramoment i was back to my oldself

so ...

bt intheend i pull myself up

and back doin other things to keep my mind occupied...

hard as its same..

i feel like giving up

ARh .. ):

okay
trm onward the brand new me
no more me thinking of dieing
no more me thinking stuff negatively
i will change
to a better the person
the person that is worth being loved..
yup its sure is hard
breaking dwn as i think everysecond
bt i hang on
becos i want to do it for myself for once
i want myself to be happy
first i must love myself
b4 even i can even love some1
okay thats it i promise to myself no more acting patheticly
okays sean !! jyjy
doesnt mean u have to change in just 1 day
mayb it could take a few months
who knows..
1 things for sure
first time i felt alive
alive to my very existence
live for myself
b4 even living for other ppl
yes wait for me
i will change
just hope its just not that too late...

the worst thing tonight is that im still alive
could i just dissapear to end it?
can i not be that pathetic?
yesh saw some 1 blog and reflect
yesh just words can made me moodless
yesh im emotional
yesh im pathetic

would u?
stay?
for ? me?
nope nope nope ):
can i get some accident happening?
den i gt paralyzed?
can i?
can i get cancer?
can i?
can i just have something bad happen to me so i can suffered alone?
can i?
can i dun be a burden
can i simply just just just u know? die?
zz

those reader
i dun write this to made u pity me
i just feel like writing hw i feel
so yeah think im pathetic
YESh i am

im so D: nw
seeem no1 need me at all
can i just dig a hole and bury myself
pleaSE?!?!?!?!? D:
mayb i just purposely walk in traffic and let the car bang me ?